once in a while i come to life..

..those are actually some lyrics from Kings Kaleidoscope.

They just came to my head but they seemed appropriate.
Cause I think that's sort of how I feel these last few days. Or since I met up with Monica for the cholo party.

I'm like overwhelmed -in a good way- about potential possibilities.
At the possibility of achieving something, new or good and different.
Producing results. Chasing unknown dreams or making things happen.
I never do that. I hate trying. I hate the possibility of failure.
IT IS ALWAYS THERE.

So that's why I usually don't even try some things. Especially if there's sacrifice or work and effort and well of course, you know there's always that lingering, annoying fear.

But I dunno. Something feels different right now. My head or heart, I can't tell which, feels differently right now.

It's Thursday today-my day off.
Monday-I applied for Texas Teachers certification program.
Tuesday- I received a call from Nancy, one of the mentors, I guess. I also requested a transcript later.
Wednesday- I researched job opportunities and found some I liked the sound of
Today- I picked up my transcript and mailed it off!

After they receive my transcript, I should be accepted into the program and I can start studying and working towards taking the tests. Then I can actually send off my applications...then we'll see what happens. But I want to do different things.

We'll see what God has in store.
By the way, my day was lovely today.
I had delicious burgers from Fuddruckers with my love that filled us up for th whole day.

We spent some time with our fur babies and bathed Jake. We binge watched Grey's Anatomy.
We prayed together.
Yes!