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It's like i'm stuck in a whirlwind of wanderlust that I feel i will never quench.
and well, how?
I just read someone's blog and she wrote about how God wants so much good for us. Unimaginable good-such amazing things that we can't even imagine!
But yes, alas, it is hard to surrender it all to him. Especially for a control freak, like myself.
I am trying though.
I want a better job. I have dreams for Doug and I.
And these last few weeks, I was on such a roll and it's like- I did some good work this last week on the dog food reset and my mind and body become complacent.
It's like, "You worked hard on that reset, you even went biking a few times this week. Just give it a rest. You're fine the way you are. Just rest. You know what? Don't even move."
Anyway, today I plan to pay for that nice little initial fee for Texas Teachers. It's $395 that will go on my lovely credit card. I'm scared what comes after. Like, I'll have to start studying and stuff and I haven't studied in a WHILE. I'm scared my brain is too rusty. BUT I HAVE TO.
I want to travel. I want time in the summers to travel with the love of my life.
I need to finish my observation hours and take that certification test, then ACTUALLY finish applications. I need to keep moving.
I cleaned out my closet today and found old journals. I can't help myself. I always read them.
10 years feels like a lifetime ago, no joke. I feel like a different Vicky.
The same Vicky still loves to treat herself and also loves to take photos.
My little gift to myself arrived at my door today. It is so kawaii.
I'm gonna research now and play a little WoW. We started again, as a family this time. Makes me feel less guilty about wasting time.
and well, how?
I just read someone's blog and she wrote about how God wants so much good for us. Unimaginable good-such amazing things that we can't even imagine!
But yes, alas, it is hard to surrender it all to him. Especially for a control freak, like myself.
I am trying though.
I want a better job. I have dreams for Doug and I.
And these last few weeks, I was on such a roll and it's like- I did some good work this last week on the dog food reset and my mind and body become complacent.
It's like, "You worked hard on that reset, you even went biking a few times this week. Just give it a rest. You're fine the way you are. Just rest. You know what? Don't even move."
Anyway, today I plan to pay for that nice little initial fee for Texas Teachers. It's $395 that will go on my lovely credit card. I'm scared what comes after. Like, I'll have to start studying and stuff and I haven't studied in a WHILE. I'm scared my brain is too rusty. BUT I HAVE TO.
I want to travel. I want time in the summers to travel with the love of my life.
I need to finish my observation hours and take that certification test, then ACTUALLY finish applications. I need to keep moving.
I cleaned out my closet today and found old journals. I can't help myself. I always read them.
10 years feels like a lifetime ago, no joke. I feel like a different Vicky.
The same Vicky still loves to treat herself and also loves to take photos.
My little gift to myself arrived at my door today. It is so kawaii.
I'm gonna research now and play a little WoW. We started again, as a family this time. Makes me feel less guilty about wasting time.
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